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Wednesday, 28 January 2015

Jealousy

“Do not look to those above you. Look to those below you, as it will more likely remind you of Allah’s favors bestowed on you.”  
[Saheeh al-Bukharee and Saheeh Muslim]

Jealousy. Envy. It's something we all can't help but feel sometimes, isn't it. It's a disease of the heart. I have this tendency to compare myself to others, it's something I really dislike about myself but no matter how many times people tell me, and how many times I tell myself "No, you're unique, don't compare yourself to her / them" I'd always end up finding myself weighing the pros and cons of being me and being the other person I'm comparing myself to anyway. I can't tell you how many times I've unconsciously found myself saying "Wow I wish I had that" or "Why can't I have a body like that" or even "I wish I had her life" when I'm scrolling down on Instagram or just simply walking somewhere in a mall. It's disgusting, really. Because it just comes to show how much of an ungrateful person I really am. 

So this post will serve as a reminder to me, and to you. That everyone has their own series of ups and downs and we only show what we want to the world. Nobody wants to show how difficult their life really is or how they're struggling with certain things. I have to remember that the next time I say "She / he has it so easy." Whatever we have is a test from our Creator. We think tests from Allah are only in the form of hardships, but no. Wealth is a test. How we look is a test. Our personality is a test. It all comes down to what we do with all of that. All the experiences that life (no, God) makes us go through are what shapes us into the person that we are right this very second. I honestly think I'd be an entirely different individual if I didn't go through some of the not-so-great events in my life. 

I'm going to start working on being more grateful for everything I have, rather than wasting my energy thinking about what I don't. I've heard this so many times but I always seem to forget it ; half of our iman (faith) is sabr (patience) and the other half is shukr (gratefulness). I am grateful for what I have in my life, but before writing this post I realised that I wasn't grateful for a lot of things too. That needs to change. I have body parts that work perfectly and good health (both are tests as well), and what do I do with them ? I spend time obsessing over what I want to decorate them with. This top, those shoes, that bag. All those things I'd say I "can't live without". (Too caught up in this temporary dunya, obviously need to work on that too.) Imagine living without feet, now that's something you can't live without, Izza.

From this point onwards, I promise myself to always be grateful for everything and to stop comparing myself to others. I promise to put my blessings into good use that will not only benefit me, but others as well. InsyaAllah. 

"Alhamdulillah for the flaws that keep me humble, the sins that keep me repenting and everything in between."


6 comments:

  1. I love this post so much Izza! <3 May Allah bless you always & ease everything you do in life :-)

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    1. Glad you love it, Lara ! Amin. And may Allah bless you too xx

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  2. Kakak Izza youre such an inspiration. Thank you for that reminder! Have a great day ahead

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    1. Awww thank you ! You have a great day tooo xx

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  3. i love all your posts really, but i keep coming to this one Izza! I need to strt reminding myself to not compare myself to others, everytime I go on instagram and see something they way I immediately have the urge to buy something alike. Youre definitely a great inspiration, keep it up Izza! May Allah bless you x

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    1. Thank you so much ! Yeah, it's a struggle for all of us (girls, at least) so I totally understand why this post is your favourite haha. I will, insyaAllah. May Allah bless you too ! :) x

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