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Tuesday, 16 December 2014

Unwell

I'm not in the right state to be blogging right now. Long story short, I vomited almost 10 times yesterday and I fainted due to nausea and acute gastroenteritis. Currently, my head feels heavy and woozy, my tummy is turning and my back hurts like crazy.  I can't really think straight too, I think I hit my head pretty hard when I fainted. The last time I vomited was probably when I was around 8 ? I forgot how painful it was to have everything from your stomach come out through your mouth involuntarily.. I am feeling much better today though. Alhamdulillah. Can't be grateful enough to have my mum taking care of me and cleaning up after me. Promise I'll take care of you the same way when the time comes :( 

Irfan had to stay up to take care of me last night through Skype. He watched me cry on Skype because of the pain and he was so worried that he stayed up to make sure I was sleeping soundly for a few hours before he went to sleep himself. I told him to call my mum if I suddenly get all sick again while I slept. I fell asleep early because all the vomiting was tiring me out, and I woke up around 2 with a stomach that was hurting like hell. It was empty and I needed to feed myself with something asap. So I told Irfan I was going down to get bread, and I never came up until 40 minutes later. I blacked out downstairs while I was looking for food. I remember feeling hot and I could feel myself sweating. Light-headed, everything around me started to look blurry, my whole body felt weak, my knees wobbled and next thing I knew I was on the ground with my cat Dino meowing furiously beside my head. It was so scary, I thought I was going to die. I passed out in front of my uncle's room opposite the kitchen, so with all my might I knocked with my arm while I was still on the floor because that was the only thing I could do. My uncle opened the door, and I was crying on the floor, vision blurred. He helped me walk to the dining table and heated up my porridge and watched me eat before helping me climb up the stairs to go to my room. 

I came back up and Irfan looked worried sick. I told him what happened and that got him even more worried. Even while I was sick, he still still manages to make me feel happy and incredibly loved.  I don't know how he does it. "You know I'd do anything for you. I love you too much.", I heard him say. Sigh. I'm the luckiest girl. Irfan's leaving for Japan and Korea tonight and I don't know how I'm going to survive 10 days without my happy pill. Praying for him and his family the safest flight and journey, amin. But good news is my brother is coming home tomorrow after spending 8 days in Bali with my cousins.

Anyway, I'm sorry I haven't blogged about Twins of Faith and everything, promised I would but I don't think I can do that now. I hope everyone's well and doing fine. I'll update my blog soon enough, insyaAllah. 


12 comments:

  1. I hope you're doint better izza and get well soon! :( -A

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    1. I am now. Thank you so much, A ! (so mysterious, don't be scared to write your name I don't bite ! haha)

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  2. get well kak izza. i love you

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    1. I love you too ! Is this Zicky

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    2. hihi, i'm a 16 years old girl. i really love to read your blog. nice writting, u inspired me a lot. u really have beautiful heart even u are not wearing hijab yet. I make u as my role model 'coz you are really kind. thank u.hope to see you in reality. thank u for reply. :')

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    3. Oh haha okay ! Awww thank you, you're so sweet. InsyaAllah we'll meet one day. You're welcome :) xx

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  3. Get well soon! You gotta drink lots of water. InsyaAllah you'll be fine 😊

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    1. Thank you so much ! And I have. Alhamdulillah, a lot better now. xx

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  4. Hey izza!!i have been reading ur blog..and i have to say it gave me inspiration..im a pessimist..i know it might sound weird if i say that u made me a more positive person than i was before, but i think sumtimes someone can be influential just by their writing. U are amazing and beautiful!!may Allah bless u and im rooting for u to change for better!!xoxo

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    1. Hii ! Ahh you're such a day maker. Thank you so much, and I'm glad that reading my blog is helping you to become a more positive person. Not an easy change to be a pessimist to an optimist haha. Again, thank you so much for the sweet compliments. May Allah bless you too, beautiful. xx

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