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Wednesday, 10 December 2014

December




Good morning ! Funny story, I was super tired last night that I fell asleep, and this morning I overslept and woke up with a headache, hence me not being in class right now haha. I had 3 papers yesterday, Elementary Accounting, Intro to HRM and Org. Behaviour. I didn't know that I had to sit for my OB paper yesterday until my lecturer told us on Monday, so you could imagine how panicked and stressed out, not to mention how unprepared I was to sit for 3 papers in one day. But alhamdulillah, I think I did fine for all three. Not expecting much for my OB paper though because I wasn't prepared for it, and the news of it being on Tuesday instead of Friday came to me as a shock. 

Anyway, I hope December is treating all of you well. Lately I've been getting a few comments on different posts on my blog and I can't tell you how happy it makes me. I received one comment on my previous post this morning saying that my blog inspires her, and that honestly got me teary. My whole life, I have always wanted to inspire people, if not people than a person at least. So when somebody tells me that I have, it just makes me really emotional how something I do, or the way I act can have an impact on somebody's life in a positive way. I hope I can help you guys one way or another through my blog, be it making you happy reading it, or reminding you about touchy topics like ; religion or inspiring you in any way possible. Be it inspire to write, or inspire to become a better person. I hope Allah blesses all of you with everything good in this life and the hereafter for being so kind. 

I ended last month good, with my step family celebrating my great grandma's birthday in her house in PJ. My step dad is really close with his cousins and other relatives so when I say I'm spending time with my step-dad's family, it's not just everyone from his family ; his parents and his siblings, it's the whole family. His parents, his mum's siblings, his cousins, his cousins' kids. I'm not related to any of them by blood but man, do they make me feel like a part of their family so effortlessly. Imagine with that many people in the house, how much food there was and everything. I'm the oldest when it comes to cousins and I love love kids so it's always a lot of fun for me to play with them, and my brother Zicky is the oldest among the little boys too. I was with their family last weekend too (I think my weekends are always filled with food and family fun nowadays, thanks to them), we had a tea party for Sophie's 6th Birthday at one of my grandma's house in Country Heights. They have a petting zoo in their backyard with 5 snakes, fishes, 3 giant Maine Coon cats. The cats were massive !!! I love felines with all my heart so you could imagine how amazed I was at how big those cats were. They had their own room too like whaaat. We also played bubbles and I took the older kids out for a walk around the neighbourhood to check out the massive houses (more like mansions). Photos !

30/11/2014

My brother performing for everyone. 
7/12/2014
Sophie, Ladiana and Sara (? ) (I'm still learning all of their names !)
He's 4 years old btw. 

That's one of my cousins with a snake.
ALL of them can hold the snakes and put it around their necks and stuff.
I'm too chicken for that. Hahaha
Besides the tea party with my family, throughout the first week of this month I did some other pretty fun stuff too. Like my friends and I tried out Boat Noodles at Publika for the first time ! They were gooood, though I expected them to taste different (like mee hailam but soupier) but instead they had like an interesting taste to it that I can't quite put a finger on. And on Wednesday, Isha and I danced in the studio for a couple of hours. It was a lot of fun. I dance, and I have been dancing for.. ever since I can remember. It's a hobby of mine I never quite shared with anyone, so when I posted a 15 second snippet of Isha and I dancing on Instagram, a lot of my friends were quite shocked. Hahaha. And on Friday, I followed mama to work with Zicky and got on the train to where our dad lives. It was really lovely to see my dad, my step mum and of course my adorable baby siblings. Adrienna is starting to look a lot like me, I look at her and I see a tiny almost 2-year old version of me. And my baby brother Aiden is too cute !! Still very little so he slept the whole time I was at papa's. After that, mama picked us up from there and we had waffles and ice-cream at Inside Scoop. They were so good. Most amazing tasting waffles ever. And the salted caramel ice-cream I had with it was delish.




December has been really good lately, even though I've been working on assignments and projects to meet the deadlines + study for my test exams this week. Hectic. My brother is off to Bali in a few hours with my cousins Hannah, Harraz and Zaim with Hannah's parents and it's making me sad how I can't follow due to my exams. Sigh. I've been having this wanderlust feeling since forever, this huge desire to get on a plane to travel and see new places and experience new things. But the rezeki for me to do that isn't here yet. Irfan is also leaving me for Tokyo, Japan next week for 10 days. I don't know how I'm going to survive that, he's never been that far away from me and it doesn't help that I miss him like crazy this very second. The last time I saw him was almost a month ago like whaaat. 

I have another paper on Friday and this weekend I'm going to be in Putrajaya for Twins of Faith ! I went for it in 2012, the second instalment of Twins of Faith in Malaysia (it's usually in the UK / Australia / France, even) with the theme "For The Love of God" and absolutely loved it. I came back from the conference with my mother, both of us filled with so much motivation to become better muslims, and I can't wait to feel that again after this weekend. It's an extremely inspiring event. I'll definitely write a blog post about Twins of Faith and what's so great about it after this weekend. But if you're still wondering what it is, I took this from their Malaysia website (click here). And I'll also include the video for the TOF theme this year. 

"The Twins of Faith Conference is an annual Islamic conference held by Mercy Mission with the purpose of educating and mobilising all people towards positive social activism. The two Twins of Faith are Knowledge and Action. Our goal is to inspire positive change through conversation, engagement and awareness of the Prophet’s vision. " 


The theme this year is going to be an eye opener. Can't wait to share what I learn from the conference with you guys after this weekend. 

Quick update : Oh, I just found out that you guys can watch the lectures live or whenever you guys want (only until 15 days after the conference) on TOF's international website here. Or you could just wait for me to blog about it and then choose which lectures to watch haha. Cause there's going to be a lot. 10AM to 10PM for 2 days isn't something you can watch for 10 minutes haha. 

Til then. xo

16 comments:

  1. Hi Izza, i've been contemplating whether i should write this because i'm super shy and i think you knw me but anyway, here goes. I think your hijrah to be a better muslim is wonderful and inspiring since i've been trying to do the same and i really hope Allah blesses all tht you do.

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    1. Hi ! I'm not sure about who you are since you're anonymous though haha so don't be shy. Thank you so so so much for that, I'm really glad that we could relate in this journey of becoming better and I hope we succeed in this world and the next, insyaAllah. May Allah bless you with everything good x

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  2. Assalamualaikum Izza.

    First, I would like to just point out that you are such a beautiful person; inside and out. I don't know you personally, but I do read your blog and follow you on Instagram. I don't know if you have already put on the headscarf for good, but I have noticed that lately most your posts are with you in a headscarf. You look so lovely and alhamdulillah if you have committed to it :'-)

    I'm currently going through a breakup, which is so hard to get through. My ex boyfriend won't even talk to me anymore and he's the one who dumped me.. Reason being that he doesn't want me anymore. I feel so sad because I gave him everything possible, and he just left.. Could you give me some advice on how to let go? :(

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    1. Waalaikummusalam.

      Thank you so much for the sweet compliment, all praise goes to Allah SWT. My plan was to start wearing it in January to be honest, but somehow I felt like I wanted to wear it now, so I'm considering this my "practise phase". If I manage to keep it on permanently then, alhamdulillah, but if I don't, I'll still forgive myself but I'll make sure by January, my hair will be covered. I'm not posting anything with my hair showing anymore though ! :)

      I'm so sorry to hear that. Going through a break up is really tough, I know how it feels :( He didn't tell you why he did that besides that he doesn't want you anymore ? There must be a bigger reason behind that but if that's the only reason, then I think you deserve someone a lot better. You deserve someone who will love you no matter what, and who will always be there for you even when things are rough and fights occur. It's okay to feel sad, but don't regret anything okay ? Because Allah has a plan for everything, Allah has a plan for you. And when He takes something away from you, He is going to give you something better.

      I'm no expert about these kind of things, but what I did to let go was I kept myself busy. I never stayed alone in my room because if I did I'd cry. It was hard for me, because when my ex dumped me, it was exactly a week before SPM. So you could imagine how messed up I felt. Because of that I think I studied harder, I wanted to prove that no boy could ruin me. I wanted to prove to myself that I was strong. And I managed to pull through. Keep yourself busy and always make doa. Allah knows best of what you're feeling, trust me. I cry everytime I prayed after the break up because I was so, so hurt. But with His will, he made me stronger. Everything happens for a reason and you just have to keep your head up, sweetie. You deserve nothing but the best, and maybe he wasn't the best one for you. I hope you're feeling better !

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  3. May Allah ease your journey into becoming a better Muslim. I hope your practice phase is treating you well! I myself am in the process of putting on the headscarf for good. I feel quite nervous to be honest, especially since all my friends are free hair. Not that they won't support me putting on the headscarf, it's just that I'm afraid to feel out of place. How is your journey with the headscarf so far?

    I don't know if it's the same thing, but my ex actually broke up with me a few days after I finished my finals! My finals were hell to go through and I was in the process of recovery from the bad papers and what not, then suddenly.. I got a TEXT telling me he wants to end things. And, the worst part is that I'm hearing things from his friends saying that he's starting to go out with his ex again. I'm so hurt and upset, I just can't believe he could do this to me. But I know once I pull through, I will be stronger.

    Thank you so much for your kind words btw! I'm so happy for you that you managed to let go of your ex and find someone who makes you happy. You and your boyfriend are too cute together :-)

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  4. And may Allah ease yours :) It is ! I can't tell you how nice it is to wear the headscarf, you'll feel a lot nicer and prettier I promise. It's totally fine to be nervous, I was too trust me. The first time I posted a picture of me wearing a headscarf on Instagram, I was nervous about what people were going to say but then I remind myself that I'm taking a step closer to obeying Allah's command, and I shouldn't care about things people say about me. I mean, if they're positive and good and supportive, alhamdulillah but if they're not then it's fine too. My best friends are mostly free hair, I understand but my best friend Aina, in my group of friends, she was the only one wearing tudung from form 1 to form 5, while the rest of us wore shorts and skirts and that didn't affect our friendship at all, and all of us love her like crazy. Now including me, 3 people are wearing the headscarf and pretty soon 4 insyaallah ! So don't worry okay, you're going to dress up differently than them, but the friendship will remain no matter what if they're your true friends.

    Ouchhh. My break up was through text too ! It hurts like hell okay, he didn't even have the guts to even call at least ? I feel you, the hearing things about him going back with his ex again. I went through the exact thing and I probably felt the pain you're feeling right now. I mean of all girls, it just had to be his ex right ? It's going to take some time (it took me 5 months) to get over this, but once you do, you're going to feel on top of the world. You just need to realize that you don't need anybody who doesn't need you, yknow. I didn't realize that until months passed by. And, if you're wondering. My ex is still with his ex now, a year later. So don't be surprised if that happens to you too, just move on and know you deserve so so much better.

    And no problem ! Haha me too, once Irfan came into my life, I started realizing why it didn't work out with my ex. Thank you ! You don't need a boy to make you happy. Go listen to Irreplaceable by Beyonce, Over It by Katherine McPhee, Lelaki by Yuna, and Best Thing I Never Had by Beyonce. Those were some of the songs I sang my heart out to every single day after the break up to make me feel better hahaha.

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  5. That's nice, I'm happy for you that so far the journey is good to you. How does your family feel about your change? They must be so proud!!

    Omg, yours was through text too!? I was in a relationship with him for about 2 years and he sent me a freaking text to end it. Some boys are just so immature. Well, the things I'm hearing is kinda messy actually. His friends are saying that they're seeing each other again and they never actually stopped talking while he was dating me.. So in a way, he never moved on from his ex and I was like a, idk, toy to play with until he decided to go back to her? It's so freaking hurtful and the fact that people actually know of this situation is embarrassing! The dumbest part is that I actually miss him!

    I feel like you went through exactly what I'm going through right now (in a way) and not to be mean, but I'm so happy someone understands.

    PS : Irreplaceable by Beyonce is my post break up jam

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    1. Thank you ! And they're really, really happy for me, my mum even raised my allowance a bit because of that hahaha.

      Yup and it was rough. And I know right, some boys are so immature. God, that's so mean if he actually did that to you. He's a jerk if he did, I'm just going to go right out and say that. But then again, you guys were together for 2 years. I'm sure most part of it was sincere, because if he was really into his ex, I don't think he'd be stupid enough to play with another girl, and I don't think his ex would have let him go to you. If that was the case. Look positively into what your relationship was and just be grateful that it made you really happy at some point, and also be grateful for what's happening now because from this, you know you deserve so much better. I know it hurts :( And my advice is just to ignore whatever people are going to say, your fault ke, his fault ke or anything, just let them be and don't acknowledge the fact that they know. It's fine to miss him, and of course you do. 2 years probably gave you a lot to remember and a lot to be happy about, I don't blame you for missing him. But as for now, he's just being a douche.

      Yeah, I think so too. Reading your story feels like I'm reading my history haha. I'm glad you think so ! I always wanna be there for people, doesn't matter if I know them or not.

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  6. Hi Izza! When you're really wearing the hijab permanently, I hope you can delete the pictures of you showing your hair..(or even delete them now) hehe just a reminder, no hard feelings or anything right? I pray the best for you! :)

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    1. Hi ! Thank you so much for the reminder. I appreciate it :) And yes, I will remember to do that ! I'm in the process of doing that but editing posts and deleting pictures take so much time so I'm doing it slowly haha. Thank you so much again, no hard feelings at all ! I pray for you too x

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  7. assalamulaikum kak izza, you really inspired me. thank u :)

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    1. Waalaikumusalam, awww thank you so much ! You're too sweet xx

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  8. Hii!! Izza, I was reading the post about what happened to your mom's car. What you did to make things right really inspired me in a way. I like the way u handled things. Also! The BR/Subway shifts in a day! wowowo. i really wish to be friends with you/or to have at least a friend as positivr as you.

    1 question, how do ask for work? macam mana you tanya/ bila nak minta kerja. haha I baru habis baru nak kerja

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    1. Hii ! Thank you so much. And hey we could be friends ! Or you could make yourself positive. I have days where I turn into a pessimist though haha. And about your question, you just go there and ask if there are any vacancies / jawatan or if they need any more people to work. Nanti they'll either ask you to leave your contact details, or fill in a form. Usually if you work with F&B (food outlets), it's not that hard. But if you nak bookstores or retail shops, that one you have to make sure you have a copy of your IC when you're asking for a job. They'll ask you for it.

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  9. hi izza, i need an advice from you. what should i do if i know that my bf cheated on me but he still wants me? should i leave him or stay? cause i love him too much. it hurts me a lot :( i feel betrayed from the one I love and trust the most. what should do? :(

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    1. Hii, I'm so sorry that he cheated. I think no one deserves that. First of all, what was his reason for cheating ? If you think he deserves a second chance, then okay. But I understand that it's really tough. Personally, if someone cheated on me. I'd leave him. Because I think that if he really loved me or cared about me, he wouldn't have done that. No matter how much I love him, I'd choose what's best for me. And I don't wanna get back into a relationship with the person who cheated on me because I'm going to have doubts, and I'm going to be all paranoid, yknow ? But I have trust issues to begin with, so you might be different. Just think about it, and think about what is better for YOU okay ? If you think he's really going to treat you better, then go ahead, you guys can start fresh. Can't imagine how hurt you are right now, stay strong. x

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