Friday, 23 June 2017

What Ifs

I'm pretty bummed that Ramadan is coming to an end, it flew by this year and although I tried to make the best of it, I know I was capable of doing much more. However, I am grateful for everything. Right before Ramadan started, things happened and I started doubting myself, and the people around me. Then I started thinking of what if scenarios, and we all know that those thoughts usually don't end well. What if I did this differently, what if I didn't do that, what if what if what if. These kind of thoughts set me up for regret and I was really close to hitting that spot. But Allah is the best of planners, there couldn't have been a better time for me to have these feelings than right before Ramadan, because I took this month as an opportunity to really start again, and cleanse myself before I self-destruct. 

I am coming out of Ramadan with a clearer vision this time, and I hope I'm able to focus and not lose sight of what's important ever again. I want to be able to put my religion above everything else, I want to be able to put myself first before everyone else, I want to feel like disappointing myself is a much bigger deal than disappointing other people. I hate that I am consumed by this temporary world we live in. I keep thinking about doing well in my studies, so I could work, and have enough money to live comfortably, but that shouldn't be it. Life is so much more than just that,  and this needs to always be planted in my head : I don't have forever to live, and I could die anytime. Any. Time. I don't want to die knowing that I could have done more. I don't want to break my own heart with the way I live. Ramadan was a breath of fresh air, it was the change of atmosphere that I needed, and I am so ready to keep changing for the better. 

Raya is riiiiight around the corner and I'd like to wish everyone who is reading this Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri ! Maaf Zahir & Batin. I deeply and sincerely apologise if I have ever wronged or offended you in any way, and I hope we can give each other a fresh start. May your Raya celebration be filled with happiness, good food, and nice pictures to post on Instagram hahah. But most of all, I pray that all of our deeds throughout Ramadan are accepted by Allah, and for all of us to be granted Jannah. Hopefully we'll meet each other there one day hehe. InsyaAllah. xx

I'll end this post with a quote I found that I absolutely adored ; 

May Allah answer your secret prayers, wipe away your secret tears, erase your secret fears, and lift you to the position you so dearly desire. 

and,  a Ramadan photo diary ; 

Wednesday, 31 May 2017

Turning Point

Salam Ramadan ! 

I know I'm 4 days late, but technically today is my first day of fasting (girls, you know why), so today's the starting line of me doing my acts of worship a lot more extensively. Ramadan is and has always been my favourite month of the year. It's such a beautiful, beautiful month and I am grateful for all of us who are well and alive today to observe Ramadan again. 

Ramadan might be our turning point. It's the month to change ourselves, whether it's just for this month or for our whole lives (hopefully, the latter). This month, everybody is changing for the better. One way or another.  Muslims around the world are doing this together, know this and you'll realise how amazing Ramadan is. People who didn't use to pray at all, are praying more now and even going for terawih, people who didn't read the Quran the whole year, this is the time they pick it up, people who used to go partying til wee hours of the morning, now find themselves having sahur with their loved ones instead. We're changing, even if it's just for this month, it's a start.

With that said, it's the month to restart and refresh your life. If you observe the month of Ramadan the best that you can, if you seek for forgiveness and repent properly, insyaAllah all of your past sins will be forgiven. Can you imagine that ? This month, that could happen. But you have to be sincere, you have to want this. But it's not enough to just seek forgiveness from our Creator, you have to seek forgiveness from everyone, and you too, have to forgive yourself. Don't beat yourself up for all the wrong things you've done in your life. Don't hold grudges on people who have done or said things to you, Allah can forgive you, so you have no reason to not forgive them. Reconnect with your friends and family, go buka and terawih with them. Do things together for the sake of Allah, imagine how much your pahala will multiply. Observing the month of Ramadan is not just about fasting and the prayers you make, and how much Quran you read. Its also about how you act. How you behave. How you carry yourself. How you treat others. This month, all of that changes. This month, it's easier for us to become patient, it's easier for us to do more good and less bad. It's not too late for us.

Saturday, 29 April 2017

Let's Talk : Surviving Diploma

Diploma would've sucked without them

I’m officially a Human Capital Management diploma holder ! Qualification isn’t everything, but I have to admit that it does feel amazing to have something to my name. 

//   S U R V I V I N G  D I P L O M A  //

  1. Pay attention in class and what the lecturer says. Jot down notes whenever possible, don’t rely on your printed material. It’s not enough. 
  2. Also, make it a point to remember the examples your lecturer gives, it’s going to help when you write an exam paper and they see that you actually pay attention haha.
  3. Try not to skip classes unless you’re sure that you’re not going to miss anything important.
  4. Take your assignments seriously. Don’t just do it for the sake of finishing it. Put thought into it, do your research, look up the internet. They carry a big percentage to your overall coursework so you should give your very best effort.
  5. If you don’t know, ask. And I don’t just mean asking your lecturer. Ask your friends ! They’re more than willing to help you understand if you just ask. I am so weak at any subjects that have calculations or numbers, so I make it a point to ask my friends to teach me and alhamdullilah, I managed to do well despite feeling incredibly stupid in class haha.
  6. And this brings me to my next point; If your friends don’t know, you help by teaching them. The more you expain to people, the better you understand. Nobody should be stingy with their knowledge.
  7. Ace your presentations ! Before presenting, make sure you thoroughly understand the topic you’re presenting. Make sure your slides are not lengthy, section them into points and you do the elaborations verbally. DO. NOT. JUST. READ. Try to explain in your own words, and give your own examples.
  8. If no one is taking the lead, you take the lead. In a group assignment, don’t just wait around for somebody to say something if you know that you should start already. You divide the task, ask who wants to do which, compile, submit on the deadline. Don’t wait around. Yes, you are going to look and seem bossy, but that’s just how it has to be. A quote I pretty much live by : Nothing will work unless you do.