Monday, 3 July 2017


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You deserve better than that” - I used to say, to anyone who opens up to me about the problems they face in their relationships, whether its about honesty, loyalty, commitment you name it. But that's the thing, my best friend and I both agreed that it's so easy to make decisions when you're not the one facing the problem first hand. It's difficult when you're in that situation because it's not as simple as it sounds when someone says "why can't you just leave ?". They don't know the emotional attachment and sentiments you have towards the other person and the relationship. So you give the person who hurt you a second chance.. and a third.. and a fourth.. and a fifth. 

How many chances would it take for you to give to be considered naive for staying ? There is no definite answer. And I guess that's what it means to have unconditional love for another person. You give and you give and you give, even when you weren't or you're not getting what you want in return. This can also be reflected upon different kinds of love too, how a mother forgives and loves her child no matter how much they break her heart, how Allah gives, and gives, and gives you all the rezeki to you despite you not doing enough for Him. 

Back to the relationship context of things, never take those who give us second chances for granted. We need to understand how hard it is for them to move on and to overlook the mistakes that have been made, to mend the heart that’s already broken, to live everyday after that trying to accept that past is past, to be brave enough to trust again even when they’re scarred and scared, to strengthen themselves so their fears and doubts don't get the best of them, to always believe in the good despite everything that has happened. 

It takes a lot for someone to be able to give out second chances. 

And if you're one of those people who give, you're so strong and you deserve all the love in the world. x

Friday, 23 June 2017

What Ifs

I'm pretty bummed that Ramadan is coming to an end, it flew by this year and although I tried to make the best of it, I know I was capable of doing much more. However, I am grateful for everything. Right before Ramadan started, things happened and I started doubting myself, and the people around me. Then I started thinking of what if scenarios, and we all know that those thoughts usually don't end well. What if I did this differently, what if I didn't do that, what if what if what if. These kind of thoughts set me up for regret and I was really close to hitting that spot. But Allah is the best of planners, there couldn't have been a better time for me to have these feelings than right before Ramadan, because I took this month as an opportunity to really start again, and cleanse myself before I self-destruct. 

I am coming out of Ramadan with a clearer vision this time, and I hope I'm able to focus and not lose sight of what's important ever again. I want to be able to put my religion above everything else, I want to be able to put myself first before everyone else, I want to feel like disappointing myself is a much bigger deal than disappointing other people. I hate that I am consumed by this temporary world we live in. I keep thinking about doing well in my studies, so I could work, and have enough money to live comfortably, but that shouldn't be it. Life is so much more than just that,  and this needs to always be planted in my head : I don't have forever to live, and I could die anytime. Any. Time. I don't want to die knowing that I could have done more. I don't want to break my own heart with the way I live. Ramadan was a breath of fresh air, it was the change of atmosphere that I needed, and I am so ready to keep changing for the better. 

Raya is riiiiight around the corner and I'd like to wish everyone who is reading this Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri ! Maaf Zahir & Batin. I deeply and sincerely apologise if I have ever wronged or offended you in any way, and I hope we can give each other a fresh start. May your Raya celebration be filled with happiness, good food, and nice pictures to post on Instagram hahah. But most of all, I pray that all of our deeds throughout Ramadan are accepted by Allah, and for all of us to be granted Jannah. Hopefully we'll meet each other there one day hehe. InsyaAllah. xx

I'll end this post with a quote I found that I absolutely adored ; 

May Allah answer your secret prayers, wipe away your secret tears, erase your secret fears, and lift you to the position you so dearly desire. 

and,  a Ramadan photo diary ; 

Wednesday, 31 May 2017

Turning Point

Salam Ramadan ! 

I know I'm 4 days late, but technically today is my first day of fasting (girls, you know why), so today's the starting line of me doing my acts of worship a lot more extensively. Ramadan is and has always been my favourite month of the year. It's such a beautiful, beautiful month and I am grateful for all of us who are well and alive today to observe Ramadan again. 

Ramadan might be our turning point. It's the month to change ourselves, whether it's just for this month or for our whole lives (hopefully, the latter). This month, everybody is changing for the better. One way or another.  Muslims around the world are doing this together, know this and you'll realise how amazing Ramadan is. People who didn't use to pray at all, are praying more now and even going for terawih, people who didn't read the Quran the whole year, this is the time they pick it up, people who used to go partying til wee hours of the morning, now find themselves having sahur with their loved ones instead. We're changing, even if it's just for this month, it's a start.

With that said, it's the month to restart and refresh your life. If you observe the month of Ramadan the best that you can, if you seek for forgiveness and repent properly, insyaAllah all of your past sins will be forgiven. Can you imagine that ? This month, that could happen. But you have to be sincere, you have to want this. But it's not enough to just seek forgiveness from our Creator, you have to seek forgiveness from everyone, and you too, have to forgive yourself. Don't beat yourself up for all the wrong things you've done in your life. Don't hold grudges on people who have done or said things to you, Allah can forgive you, so you have no reason to not forgive them. Reconnect with your friends and family, go buka and terawih with them. Do things together for the sake of Allah, imagine how much your pahala will multiply. Observing the month of Ramadan is not just about fasting and the prayers you make, and how much Quran you read. Its also about how you act. How you behave. How you carry yourself. How you treat others. This month, all of that changes. This month, it's easier for us to become patient, it's easier for us to do more good and less bad. It's not too late for us.